Archive for November, 2003
30 November 2003 | 04:24 PM
La Di Da Di Da
Church this morning was what you might call “a time.” We all went, me and Ian and Jess; walked through the wind and cold, unsure of if there would be any Crossroads people there at all. Happily, there were! Jason and Lori lead worship and Ify managed to get off working today. The service went [...]
29 November 2003 | 02:42 PM
Ack, Ack, Ack!
December 1st my manuscript must be sent off! Ack! Eeek! Panic! Actually it’s mostly prepared thanks to Uncle Gerard’s kind help… and no thanks to the 3 people I asked who either didn’t get back to me after agreeing to do so or got back saying they were renaging their agreement to help. OK I [...]
28 November 2003 | 09:02 PM
Final Thought
Mom and I had a talk tonight. She said she felt worried that I was depressed because my blog sounded so down. As we continued to talk further, however, she suggested an interesting idea: blogs happen when I feel strong emotions. Interesting, and true I think. When I’m feeling sad or depressed, what’s the first [...]
28 November 2003 | 10:08 AM
OK
Alright. Everything is OK. I’ve eaten some leftover scalloped potatoes (guess we didn’t need 2 pans after all), fed Tiff and Jess, and they’re around talking. We learned something about the East Coast yesterday: grocery stores are closed Thanksgiving Day. Jess had gotten in a tad late for a major shopping trip Wednesday night, so [...]
28 November 2003 | 08:12 AM
Nobody’s Savior
I think I am going to throw up. I cannot, cannot handle this. I am nobody’s savior; I cannot even save myself. What does she expect me to be? The magical antidepressant? The enforcer of a no-harm contract? Happy? I may update later if I can find the strength to do anything. Right now my [...]
27 November 2003 | 06:56 AM
Sinking Feeling
They’re here, and the whole thing is far, far worse than I thought it could be. For all I like my friends, having them here all of yesterday with the knowledge of many such days stretching into the future just makes me want to cry. I realize this *is* the internet, so I will not [...]
26 November 2003 | 06:08 AM
This is THE Day
Alright, admitedly today is *not* Thanksgiving, and I know that’s what everybody normal looks forward to. However, today is the day Jess and I have been counting down for since 60 or 70 days ago. Yay! I’m actually rather pooped already because we went to bed at midnight (aahh so late! ) and I woke [...]
