And life is thorny; and youth is vain


Day’s Verse:

“When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold. My foot has held fast to His steps; I have kept his way and not turned aside.”

Job 23:10-11


No deep thoughts yet today. Last night I had a talk with a friend, and she told me pretty much point-blank that I really needed to make a point of getting friends. I am terrible at reaching out to people even when the pain of being alone feels like it’s killing me, and she told me that was something I need to focus on. I know that Ian can’t be the only person in my life, and he isn’t, but I have such a hard time expanding out from the few people I have. As time goes by friends slip away, but I seem to fail at making new ones. If God gives me opportunities, I just seem to miss them; then again, few opportunities will come traipsing in to the apartment and that’s where I spend most of my time. The whole thing of friends is so difficult, though, because frankly it’s awkward and scary; I’m terrible with people and end up looking like an idiot more times than not. Stepping out on a limb is scary, but more than that – what limb do I step out on to? Class isn’t the place to make relationships that are at all out of class and I’m not at all motivated to involve myself in college “activities.” If there was a walking club, or a book club, that would be something… Or if I was braver, more gregarious, and likeable, that might help too. Too bad I can’t get friends like you would a dining room table: “Wanted: good friends, trustworthy, good sense of humor, preferably Christian, willing to go out of way for others. Contact Katie at (508) 963-4783.” Continue Reading >>