26 March 2005 | 07:54 AM
Hopelessly Bogged
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Day’s Verse:
And Jesus cried out gain with a loud voice, and yielded up his spirit. And behold, the veil of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom; and the earth shook and rocks were split.
Matthew 27:50-51
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This picture is of a tomb labeled Kennedy in the cemetery near our apartment. One day during the middle of winter I walked through the snow to the graveyard to see my favorite old stone, but snow had covered it too deeply. So I looked inside the Kennedy tomb, one of the few actual buildings in the cemetary, and saw that the designers had engraved on the wall next to the cross “It is life which is night and death is daybreak.”
There seems to be no daybreak for me; perhaps the weight of my responsibilities will crush me – it feels that they must, soon – and perhaps then I’ll be freed from all responsibility forever.
- KF -
March 26th, 2005 at 6:20 PM
“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” Isaiah 40:29-31
March 26th, 2005 at 8:49 PM
Yeah. You don’t know how much you can lift til it’s in your hands, and by then it’s already halfway off the ground, so go on and finish the job.
March 28th, 2005 at 2:30 AM
Sure, but what if I get crushed because – oops – that was too much?
March 28th, 2005 at 9:37 PM
If it’s too much, put some of it down, slowly. Or find someone who can share the load.
“Responsibility” is an interesting word. I try not to think of it as “burden I carry”, but more as “ability to respond”. And if you’re too bogged down, you CAN’T respond the way you would want to.
None of which probably helps.
But we’ve all been there. It gets better.