Sing praises to God, sing praises; sing praises to our King, sing praises. For God is the King of all the earth; sing praises with a skillful psalm.
Have you ever had a time when you opened your mouth and something mean just came out? Yesterday I got miffed at our roommate when I walked in the door and he immediately shouted my name. I told him to “shut up and leave me alone,” which later struck me as odd because honestly I had no intention of saying anything like that. What’s in your heart comes out your mouth, indeed. Guilt arrived after a while and I wondered why I had even said that. I do not like being accosted the instant I walk in the door, and our roommate has a propensity to do just that in his (often over) exuberant manner of greeting. Even so I confess I did not anticipate reacting so strongly to such a small annoyance.
I think the problem is that 100 small annoyances, not only from him but from everywhere, have built up. I have no release mechanism in place right now, since Ian’s work has preoccupied him entirely and I can hardly call home every night. There’s nowhere I can go to just blow off steam, and I can’t even spend time alone because there is no alone in this apartment. For the end of this post I’d like to put a positive spin on things because honestly I’m happy with my classes, look forward to going to London with trepidation and excitement, and generally feel good about life. But then something like this happens and makes me wonder…
– KF –