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Day’s Verse:
Do not be afraid when a man becomes rich, when the glory of his house is increased; for when he dies he will carry nothing away; his glory will not descend after him.
Psalm 49:16-17
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As another school-year draws to rapid end, I have begun feeling that something momentous ought to accompany it. This end marks Ian’s completion of his undergraduate education and the final break between myself and my senior friends. It also means that in 11 days my plane will take off for Heathrow and I will begin the scariest journey of my life thus far.

More than those things, though, the end of this year points me towards the end of next year. Now I watch seniors MQPing, job searching; next year, I will do those things. It’s more than a little hard to imagine because I feel exactly as if I just left for college this year. It scares me to realize that not only do people think I’m an adult (do they?), but I have to act adult. Just like Kendra, our dear departing Bible Study leader in the picture here. I can only aspire to be a dult like Kendra.

– KF –

6 thoughts on “The End is Near

  1. Try not to be scared–just be excited and a little nervous. You won’t be totally on your own and you’ll find out in practise what you’ve probably always known in theory, that God really is everywhere!

  2. This is something I don’t understand. People have been telling me, “Don’t be scared, it’s not a scary thing to do.” As if I can just stop! Which I can’t. But I don’t think there’s anything wrong with being scared, and I don’t see why I shouldn’t be. It’s natural to worry about doing something new and momentous like going go a gigantic city in another country and traveling around alone – I will be, mostly – in that city.

    I think it’s fine to be scared. What’s not fine is letting the fear conquer and ultimately not doing it because of that fear. It’s only in the doing things that you admit scare you do you realize that, as you say, God is everywhere and controls everything that happens to us.

    Wasn’t Joshua afraid? God didn’t say “Don’t be scared,” He said, “Be strong and very courageous” in spite of it. And He had to tell Joshua three times; only the last time did He say “do not tremble or be dismayed,” which implies to me that Joshua was going to let that trembling and dismay stop him from taking courage and doing the deed. God first told him to have courage, and that’s what I’m trying to do despite my fear.

  3. I didn’t mean to deny you the feelings you’re having. I guess it’s just semantics but I thought maybe if you think of it as feeling “nervous” instead of “scared” it might help you not become overwhelmed with the fear. But I can see now that you have yourself well prepared and my comment was frivolous. I’m sorry. You know–your answer to me was very adult. 🙂

  4. !! Gasp!

    You mean adult responses come naturally after a while?!

    P.S. Hopefully I didn’t sound to mean or anything. I didn’t intend that, if it did come across as offensive or mad at you. <3 🙂

  5. No, I didn’t think you were mad, exactly, but I could tell you felt strongly about the issue. I like it that you are forthright about your feelings.

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