He who gives an answer before he hears,
It is folly and shame to him.
Yantra offered me $46,100 a year. I have to make a decision by next Wednesday. Despite all my other work, I cannot focus on anything but whether I should take this job or not. I have thought out the pros and cons, and they seem to suggest I would benefit from taking the job, in terms of experience and so forth. But then, I would put 70 miles a day on the car, and on myself, and how can I know how I will tolerate that commute? And the work itself: I cannot know if it will appeal to me or not until I start, but I suspect I would find it interesting enough.
I remember Ian telling me back when he got his Raytheon job offer, “Just tell me what to do.” Now his plea makes so much more sense. A thousand things chase themselves around in my head: What about the National Grid possibility? What about Jim Cahill at RSA Security? What about other unknown possibilities, opportunities perhaps closer to my heart? Is it hasty to take the first job offer? When will I have free time, if I drive an hour to work each way? How will the commute affect my marriage? What will working 50 weeks out of every 52 feel like? Will I crack under constant work, seeing my family for a week every year, all the other adult responsibilities?
I have asked for an extra week or two to decide, but my liason at Yantra sounded very doubtful. They did not want to delay offering the position to somebody else if I turn them down. Although hoping for a reprieve, I expect none; and I will have to decide with too little information. I wish so many things…