“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.”
A biking buddy of mine gave us some baby room furniture and a couple of (I have to admit) really cute pull-along toys. I think that I would have loved this kind of thing when I was little, given that I towed around a roller skate on a string pretending it was a puppy.
We also have, in fact, acquired a place to put the baby when he’s born: A Ferguson family classic, a crib Ian and Caitlyn used, currently sans anything soft to make it bedlike. It’s got a drop-down side, which isn’t recommended these days, and frankly I wish it didn’t for an entirely selfish reason: I cannot, for the life of me, figure out how it’s intended to go together. This is a piece of furniture with 7 pieces total. I’ve done Lego creations more complicated than this, albeit with instructions. And yet I remain puzzled.
I’m afraid this will be the story of my life in the future. I can change my own bike tire, run a lawn mower, drive a car, use a computer… but not figure out baby equipment.
Fortunately I know this is just a tiny piece of the future. One of our friends, Jane, came over yesterday with her 3-year-old (I think; sorry, Jane, if that’s wrong) son Colin. She’s pregnant with their second child, a daughter, and it was nice to spend some time with her. It was like a little glimpse into what I hope our future holds. Colin was smart, curious, quite polite and obedient, and delightful to spend a couple hours playing with. The play toy in the park actually looked fun when he played on it, and my little Kenworth truck hotweels collection got more love than it’s had in years. I appreciated the reminder that I do enjoy young children who aren’t infants, and I look forward to spending the time with our son when he’s a little bit older.
Meanwhile, I’ll enjoy what I’ve got: Increasingly slow but trailer-free bike rides, walks with friends sans strollers, evenings out that don’t involve a babysitter or time limits, mealtimes when I feel like it and of foods I prefer. It’s learning to take life one day at a time, appreciating and savoring what I can do and experience today, and being prepared for the future but not anxiously worrying about it.