Here I am, fresh out of my exam. I studied plenty in the last 24 hours, and a reasonable amount the week prior to it. Really, considering everything, I feel pretty darn good. I knew 22/25 multiple choice questions off the top of my head, meaning I had to take educated guesses on three of them. There were 5 short answer questions, and unless I am far more confused that I ought to be, they weren’t too difficult. Trouble came only when she asked for some details on a scientific paper that I’d read a couple times but didn’t understand perfectly. Still, I was the first person done in the class, taking 35 minutes total, and I kind of lollygagged around checking my answers because I didn’t want to be the first one to turn an exam in (oh well).

Right now I’m practicing breathing again… At least until I begin studying for my Geology exam. It’s a good feeling to finish an exam – like finishing a Cross Country race, but without the puking part. More thoughts to come, as I have 5 hours alone here until I am scheduled to meet my advisor. (Darn him for making a 4:30 appointment!)

– KF –

Exam Stress!

First exam of the year tommorrow, gang – my wonderful Prof. Robertson is initiating me into Real Bio exams, none of this softie Intro Bio business. 17 page study guide and thick stack of notes… Frankly, I’m freaking out for no good reason. I have exams in my other two classes all of a sudden too – Geology on Tuesday and Math on Wednesday. Why do they group their test-giving like this? I have nothing to do, then suddenly it’s all work work work.

Happily though the dinner for Luke went well. Turkey stroganoff with peas, then a cake Luke bought himself (he also enjoyed a $25 bottle of Italian white wine, which we abstained from). Overall turned out well, especially as I made a point of cooking the turkey quite thoroughly though it was brand new. I have a horrible fear of food poisoning that I simply cannot shake. You’d think I’d be immune from all the dirt I ate as a kid, but it doesn’t seem to have worked that way.

OK, back to the books. Wish me luck for tomorrow & the following few days.

– KF –

Trouble Right Here in River City

Alright, I admit that I’m not actually in River City, but there is some trouble here in Worcester. Namely, AIM continues to give me trouble with my kfergos account. By trouble I mean that I have forgotten my password (OK, that is my fault), but AOL will not email it to me. Strange but true.

Today is Luke’s Birthday – HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUKE! – assuming he reads this. Big assumption, but there it is. The plan is for me to make him a homemade dinner, but I’m completely at a loss as to what he would like. Personally I may be in the mood for pancakes & bacon, but some people feel that’s a little strange for dinner. Spaghetti is another easy alternative, though we actually had it last night…

Yesterday was that terrific rainstorm. I didn’t particularly like getting wet, but worse to me was the fact that I didn’t have anywhere to go to get dry. First I went to Huges, but Kristin and Jos were gone; then out into the rain to Dana, but Lesley hadn’t returned from class yet; then to Sackler, but by then I was so wet I couldn’t sit down; so to the UC for no apparent reason… Ernie couldn’t take me home to dry off, so I was stuck. Finally I did see Kristin and Jos for a while, but by then I had gotten so soaked that I couldn’t even sit down without getting wetter. Waiting for the shuttle a nice prof let me stand under his umbrella – I wonder what his name is? The roads were flooded on the shuttle ride home, too, but that didn’t stop our driver (only made him 15 mins late). I doubt I’ll forget that rainstorm for some time.

I got to talk to my FiL last night for a time while we waited for Ian to get home. It was kind of awkward, but not really – and to tell the truth when he said, “Hi this is your father-in-law” I was kind of creeped out. There was a momentary I’M TOO YOUNG FOR THIS reaction, but I realized I’m not and I am indeed married. Cool! 🙂 Also I got a nice long email from my MiL after having sadly neglected such communications, so I feel much better about that. It can be a lot of work being so far away from both my families.

I *think* that thanks to a suggestion of Eric’s we have both links in the blog text and Comments sections working. Try it out and let me know!

– KF –

Tough Choices

So – which are more important, a comments section or links? It seems that, at this point, it’s one or the other. Currently I’m set up to work with links, but all comments must be emailed to me rather than just commented… Perhaps I should get rid of the tantilizingly frustrating “Comments” link then, but I keep hoping to get it working. Help! Somebody w/HTML abilities, any brillian suggestions?

I just want this site to work & look good – that’s all!

– KF –

Hangin Out

Well, I’m learning that free time & having a blog are a bad combination. Between 11:40 and 1:25 I have nothing to do at Clark but listen to my stomach growl so here I find myself in the computer lab playing around with my blog. For some reason our comments link refuses to work whether we use HaloScan or Blogspeak… Ah, for when things work the way they should!

Starship Troopers is an interesting read, and as I’m halfway through I think a comfy spot somewhere and that book would be better than overwhelming this blog.

– KF –

Starship Troopers & a New Monitor

It’s another day, my friends (the plural in the hopes that more than one person will be reading this). Pastor Lou, as his last day as our pastor at CCF said we ought to ask each morning, “Lord, what exciting new things will you show me to do today?” For me that is a pretty new concept, being happy and ready to face each day. Yet in James it says, “Consider it pure joy when faced with trial of every kind.” If every day is meant to be a trial, God has a reason for that. I daily fail to live this truth, yet that doesn’t make it any less true.

Indeed, this is in accordance with my resolve that when I reached Worcester (and here I am), I would find one beautiful thing every day, no matter what it is. To this end I have seen peaceful green spaces across from our apartment, happy people laughing together, beautifully maintained 100-year-old houses, and one picture of a By-the-Wind Sailor I have to say that I still feel that is the best thing that’s happened to me this whole month.

Another great thing that happened this month is my new $305 17″ flatscreen monitor. Just got it today. Holy cow, this new monitor is huge. I was having some issues, but when I switched it to highest 75 Hz and highest resolution it’s HOT. Except the dual monitor thing is a bit of an issue, since my other one can’t handle such performance. It’s still my baby, of course, been with me since the beginning… I guess I’ll just have to wait for my in-house tech help (read: Ian). Eric asked why we spent that much when my other monitor is perfect… All I could say was, “I’ve been wanting it since I got this video card, and we had the chance to buy it.” Happily he accepted that explanation and we moved on. I have to say, this monitor really does make my rather mediocre day. I was disappointed as usual to find that none of my “friends” were around, though I left a message on their whiteboard suggesting we hang out. Oh well… this is something I’m struggling with right now, and it won’t seem to resolve itself. Speaking of “resolve itself,” our comments link has randomly decided to konk out. If you have comments I’d suggest email, as it’s very reliable.

For me that has been the worst part of being married so far. I love Ian, and it’s absolutely the best thing to be married to him – but being away from Clark with no reliable transportation but my own feet is wreaking havoc on my other relationships. I desire to spend as much time as I can with them, but they seem so busy, and though I’m not there’s not much I can do. I can’t spend all day at Clark alone waiting to see them (though I have); I can’t walk over at night when they might be avaliable; Kristin isn’t interested in risking her virginity or at least wallet in driving over to WPI alone; I don’t know what other options I have. After a while I start feeling like they don’t care (probably not true), because if they did they would be willing to put some effort into maintaining our relationship. I don’t see much of that happening on their side… I’m sorry to say that after a while I start feeling bitter – and then I wonder why I should even try to maintain such relationships. I get depressed, lonely, and very apathetic about maintaining any relationships at all. In fact, I ask myself why I should even go to Clark if I only know 3 or 4 people there and the school doesn’t really have my desired major (journalism) anyway. Sometimes life seems so strange.

I now realize I’ve written not a blog but a biography. So to that end, I shall stop talking.

– KF –

Quick Note

Make Comments is up, but there’s something strange about the way the page loads that interferes with it. I don’t know enough HTML to fix it & Ian is trying his best, but we still aren’t having much luck. Two blogs on one page – without random scrollbars – is pretty difficult. If you have any brilliant ideas, IM us.

… Later…

All I can say is that I’ve married a very persistent and wonderful man. You all would be lucky to get somebody as absolutely excellent as he is.

– KF –